to my Father...

Tatay,


Anyone can say, imagine life without a father. I must say, How about living a life without a father? Nearly a decade when we lost you, still we just have to linger on every memory we have of you - to keep us strong, to bind us together. A lot have happened, we all changed and is continuously changing. We are all fine and is doing well, but, I feel the need to write to you about someone - Nanay.

I myself have been so consumed by my own thoughts towards you that I now realized what could have been her thoughts lately towards you. Your absence, your being alone in another world, or perhaps your not being here with us. Let me express to you how Nanay would have been feeling now.

We have your photo in a corner, smiling. Nanay will always dust it away. She must be thinking that you have to take good care of yourself and that she misses to caress you at times. Perhaps, everytime she sits on the sofa with our dog and sees your picture, she would have thought of having you beside her. Maybe, when she is at the kitchen, she would envision how busy you are preparing for our Sunday lunch. Nanay has been strong since the time you go. She has been able to fill your shoes and yes, became our pillar too. Tatay, you should know how much she loves you and how much she misses you. I myself, will still smile everytime I get hold of your wedding pictures. Both of you are such a lovely couple that I believe things will forever be timeless between you and Nanay.

Tomorrow is Mother's day Tatay. Nanay will be in her usual garb; busy, busy and always busy. But, I just want you to know that we love Nanay so much and that we will always take good care of her. We will love her as much as you love her too. We may not be with her at times, or we may be too hardheaded for her to deal with, but, you are assured that life will never be the same without Nanay. Life means having both of you. Nanay has been very patient to us and she has been supportive to us. I am sure, you will agree that despite your absence, she did a job well-done in nurturing us.

Tatay life has never been the same without you. It has caused much pain to Nanay seeing you go. But, despite all these, love shared among us will keep us all together amidst and against all odds.


Always,
Toto