Eulogy - II

When the ashes are all but dirt, the wind will blow it away and everything will be forgotten. But I tell you now, neither the wind nor the circumstances can take you away from me. Hear me out, hear me and you will feel this burden in me. This loss is more than unbearable than I thought. I watch you being burned in this furnace and I weep because I am scared - scared of you losing all the memories we had.

Should I bury you or should I keep you in me? How I wish you are still the same one whom I shared my laughters with. How I wish right at this moment, it was your shoulder whom I am leaning at. Believe me, if every star will fall, I will consume every ounce of me to catch every falling star just to wish all these. Maybe, I would like to wish that you are sitting beside as these stars fall instead?

Strange, but this feeling of being alone has made me a prisoner of sadness since the time that you left. I tried to be happy but, my soul I believe has been forever haunted by this spirit of sadness that it will be forever impossible for me to smile. Perhaps, to smile means for me to kneel in front of your tombstone and cherish - again - whatever is left in this thread of life that I am clinging at with you - together.

A plea is more than I can think of as of now. I will bury you now, I will let your ashes be ashes of the earth. Let nature claim ownership upon but never your heart. This tombstone I will seal but nothing to keep me and you free from the bondage of this solitary life. Today,

I bid good bye to you but not in my heart. Good bye but I love you.